bumi manusia

i don't wanna go, i could've stayed.
stay to move.

a running track

i'm a runner.
a runner up and i'll run away.
when i run, i never look back.
i'll leave.
i'm observing.
asking many questions
but in the end,
it remains.

to the center of the world

;)

'another' being

i like it here being alone, but i never be all "alone". there is a space of the unseen encounter, the unheard communication trying to make a connection in the physical body.
so i never be really "alone".

i believe that everyone is aware of their five basic senses-seeing, feeling, smelling, hearing and tasting. what everyone is not so well aware of is their "other" sense, that sense of otherworldliness, a relation to something more and greater than their physical senses are able to perceive. and i do believe that the universe is full of this unlimited energy that can be tapped by almost anyone who are willing to make the effort to focus and tune themselves to its subtle vibrations-- but i never wanted to. i never wanted to focus on the vibe nor had hallucinated my self. "it" just appears. showing themselves in front of me. and i get used of "their" existence.

my first experience when i was 3 years old, i kept bugging my mother about what i've seen on top of the wardrobe when no one seen it. it became a never ending sophistication through my entire life.
i don't care if anybody won't believe it,

but!
i am not insane. i can truly distinguish between what is real and what is "unreal" in the real world. and i wasn't trying to exaggerate the impact of their invasion to my body. so please understand, why'd sometimes i cry in the middle of the night, had this terrible emotional attack of something eerie, and sometimes i'd prefer to turn the light on when i go to bed just to refuse seeing them on the dark.

dan kamu tidak bisa membayangkan betapa mereka dapat menginvasi alam pikiranmu, membisikkan sesuatu permohonan yang membuatmu bergidik. gemanya menjalar hingga ujung bulu kuduk.

penguin family

mhmm...

it's calling me