i knew God was nice to me (and always been) when i had jogging this morning as my habitually exercise on the weekend. in that precious time, i was be able to felt that my mind and body slowly became light, calm and clear. as well as my feelings.
feelings play a important part in directing all of my thoughts and actions ( if i had bad feeling, that could be ruin my mood). for me, i have a river of feelings, in which every drop of water is a different feeling, and each feeling relies on all the others for its existence. to observe it, i just sit on the bank of my river and identify each feeling as it surfaces, flows by, and disappears.
in jogging , i got my pleasant "breathing time" and just observe it, identifying it silently to my self. i had the glimpse about me and my lover (and our future dream about family). we were siting together on a cozy couch with one cute little girl felt content seeing her "parent" delighted by her side. there're pizza and popcorn ( i though i was too lazy to cook) and a TV cartoon for a little girl. it was just like on the end of sunday evening, when outside ambience was pretty gloomy and dreary but inside, we face that unpleasant feelings with care, affection and peace.
i can felt it :) and transformed them into the kind of energy that is healthy and has the capacity to nourish me. because my feeling is not separate from me or caused merely by something outside me. my feeling is mine, and for the moment i am that feeling. i am neither drowned in nor terrorized by the feeling, nor do i reject it. i just let it go.
jogging or walking not just a tool to keep my self healthy or just to burn calories. that's my quality time to nurturing my mind (instead of praying) and God is nice to me.
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